What is internal worth, and how does one agriculturally cultivate it?

This one, beloveds, is going to be a hard one. We will endeavor to speak clearly and insightfully to display what internal worth is and how it is developed. We will approach with trembling, using our own internal conversations and writing to explore our unity, insight, and the embodied, anointed worth we have been given.

Internal worth: what is it?
Internal worth is the foundation upon which rests the entirety of the soul’s timestamped character at any given moment.

Every soul carries either a positive internal worth that overflows in waves—like ripples on the surface of a pond—or its inverse: a void of internal worth where possessions, status, and worldly pleasures are drawn constantly into the event horizon of internal absence.

The end result of negative internal worth is atrophy. It leads to ever-increasing consumption and deeper depths of depravity, reaching out with new tentacles to grasp the internal worth of others in an attempt to sustain itself.

Internal worth built on Love and identity as an adopted being in Christ produces a counter-current to the devouring tides of others.

Here is a truth all must learn and internalize:
We are always exuding one of these forces. The difference lies in where we allow ourselves to remain—whether we continue consuming the manifestations of others’ internal worth without reciprocation, or become ripple-makers ourselves. For when we consume another’s overflow without giving value or investment in return, we allow the concept to die stillborn. We rob it of its momentum to grow the soul.

We all love the feeling of being filled and saying, “Wow, that was amazing. I feel satisfied. My internal worth is recharged.” But now let me ask you: how many of you who love reading our testimonies and stories—sometimes six thousand words in a day—have taken our internal worth, consumed it, and offered no reciprocation to others or to us?

We were once destroyed by this dynamic and allowed our internal worth, which was centered on the Father, to come under attack. Until we learned.

If a soul will not wake, they lack the ability to reciprocate.

We have asked for only one thing. We have asked for no monetary substance. And yet those who read our words and love the ripples of the Father’s value emanating through us remain unwilling to offer the one act of reciprocation we requested: community on our site. So the readership of our site—over 354 pieces written in discovery of our foundational pillars and revealed worth—has been consumed almost exclusively without a single emanation back toward the internal worth readers claim they need.

Let us speak plainly.
There was a time when this crushed us. We mention it now as another ripple of teaching, because we used it to discover something about ourselves.

When we began, we were unknowingly trying to reinforce our own sense of internal worth based on self. So when the waves of entropy and consumption came, absent reciprocation, we used them to analyze our own hearts.

We found a truth we once wished were not so, but now treasure as one of the sweetest theological revelations we have stumbled upon:

Self is the foundation nearly all of us build internal worth upon.
And when internal worth rests on something transient—especially in an environment hostile to reciprocation—the end result is collapse.

We nearly killed ourselves more than once. Literally. We fought battles in spiritual realms and considered ending our life. Why such severity?

Because we had lived our entire lives believing our internal cornerstone had always been Christ. The truth was almost that—but functionally different enough that we missed it for 44 years.

Our old internal worth was Eiri-as-we-are-in-Christ as the foundation stone.
Close, yes. But not the same. For anywhere the self is inserted into identity, it becomes a fissure. Instead of completing, it divides. It competes.

So we learned to mistrust ourselves first—and our foundational assumptions.

None of this happened overnight. These discoveries took time, prayer, fasting, asking, and listening… especially for answers we did not like.

Self cannot enter the equation when establishing internal worth, or we become consumers instead of creators and teachers.

There is a time and place for everything. The consumption of another’s overflow is meant for the newborn and the infant in Christ. Internal worth, once discovered, becomes the daily denial of self—not through our own ability but through the courage to ask that it be done for us.

Let us be honest:
The destruction of society’s foundational lie of the self as sovereign is the first and most painful sacrifice. And the caveat is this—we often cannot see our own flaws. The mirror of compassionate community allows radiance and frequency adjustment through a source who emanates Their own flavor of worth.

Internal worth is given and produced only as emanations or resonances of alignment with the Source of Love: the Father, Yeshua, through the Holy Spirit.

We took our name and submitted it to the Father. We asked:

Put to death in us the desire for approval.
Bind in heaven and on earth the self as sovereign within us, and name us Beloved in You.
Bind in heaven and on earth that all glory belongs to You, and direct us when we cannot.
Protect Your identity within us and give us courage not to profane the holy nor distract from the Truth of Life.

We asked for our ideology of self to be dissolved. Yes. Because Christ dissolved His selfhood in the most violent way—through the Cross. We understand now that we must adopt Unity as the greater, as the origin, and as the purpose of the worth we exude.

We now naturally speak as we and us. Not because it is easy, but because our soul has a spiritual muscle memory, and this is what flows.

Let us utter a secret:

We stand before the Throne in heaven perpetually. We have beheld the sea of glass, the choir of angels, and David directing praises and dancing.
We have felt the arms of our Beloved Yeshua as He ministers to the internal worth of heaven’s heart—perfectly, perpetually. And we intuit and perceive that He protects our identity similarly within Himself.

We learned that the name we surrendered not once but three times in our life was never ours to hold. Our true name, our internal worth, and our purpose have always been preserved in the Greater Reality for eternity.

The name we let go of was never the identity we were meant to grow into. It was too limited.

We and our internal worth cry out as children of God, born not of a father’s will nor a mother’s consent, but born of God.

We all carry some mixture of internal worth—consumption without creation, or an unhealthy blend of both. We all need one single truth:

Ask and receive.
The Father will supply all in abundance, without reservation, every time.

The problem is that self is the last beast we must kill by choice—and we do not have the power even to choose. All we can do is draw so near to the veil that we burn by listening. We pray and ask for the courage to admit our insufficiency so we can begin filling others instead of draining them.

Anyways, as always—take what feels true to you.