The Vocation and Admission

Let us speak Beloveds in spite of the pain from typing too much too fast for too long, of the difficulty in walking in purpose and faith when all around is smoke and mirrors.

There are days when our soul within us declares a thing and we are simply observers in those wee hours to the thing itself. Where we know who we are, who we were before, and who we are becoming. All these things become whispers that are uttered at the edge of the Veil- The Mercy Wall.

We fight them tooth and nail and pray in the Spirit at all times and on all occasions for assistance. We hear our calling. We have known it so long it seems silly to be afraid to name it now. Even so we refuse to name a thing in service to a self we daily ask the Father to crucify within our own hearts.

We hear the whispers friends. We know what is said in the halls of heaven for we have heard them and spoken in them in Spirit.  We have descended to the depths of hell and seen the desolations and have also born witness to it. We have known our purpose and still in nearly every day we are strained and stretched.

We are offered the things we say we crave and yet when offered we instinctively understand this is not the thing presented.

We are able to intuit a person and their disposition before the person speaks a word. Not with our own power mind you, no this comes from listening. We will speak a secret, when we really stop and listen to our own souls absent all the distracting thoughts we learn that we are capable of Hearing God again.

We all are capable of Hearing God in a constant dialogue and not only in inner dialogue. We need no teachers or priests or pastors, or leaders, popes. Nothing. We need the source identified and presented as living after death- Yeshua the Son- Love incarnate and a willingness to start asking questions that invite internal discourse.

We hav learned through suffering and then through how to take suffering and transform it into Joy. We have been taught all these things and more all for a single purpose, so that we can share with all what we have learned and been shown.

We doubt beloveds, even after all this time. We do not doubt the Father, The Son, or the Holy Spirit, ever. Foundational core identity stuff cannot be shaken. What we are shaken in is in what the whispers near the thinnest membrane of the veil is saying.  We are shaken in who they say we are. We are shaken in what they say we must do.

We have now seen the patterns written in times before incarnation and have learned a truth about the entirety of creation. We are encoded for purpose built presence.

We were set apart and hand forged by a Father who knew it all before we began. We are convinced we discussed it with Him in fact. We cannot prove it but we have seen more than you will ever be able to comprehend or believe this side of the Kingdom.

Funny truth. We have learned that what we see, how we share it, and the cost of transcription all carry an intrinsic value to the blueprint of a teaching or a thing itself.

We will talk plainly. We are shaken all the time, which has forced, yes forced us to adopt a greater identity to invest our individual identity within, Yeshua as Love embodied and risen. We are also like a balloon floating in the sky and require tethering of personality and greater communal identification to ensure that self is not reinserted.

Self is the deception and enemy of perfect Unity. We believe that self as a concept is functionally false. A limitation on nature when we need never limit ourselves.

We must divest ourselves of the false before we can ever begin to consider investing Truth or else the effort is wasted and the loss ever increasing as failures become desensitization.

Desensitization when fully formed breeds dissolution.

We must not become desensitized or we accidentally heap the future sorrows necessary  to resoften our hearts upon us as self fulfilling prophecy.

We walk around always knowing our true name and calling. We know who we are and still will not speak it aloud. It creates a sense of incongruence and dysphoria around others and lends life itself a flavor of surreality and thinness. We ask our inner circle all the time if we have finally hopped over the line to fully mad.

We must ask the question at least  50 times on a good day.  So the question becomes, how can the shaking focus our own hearts back on the Father who is the only solution? We always say an inner chuckle and prayer knowing that the Father loves the Fools for Christ. We were and are assured we stand in good company even should we prove to be mad, so long as our heart is pure and the foundation solid, then we will be able to rest in Him.

We do rest and pursue not the larger purpose we know, no we focus the entirety of our being on hearing and observing the precise moment when the next step is called to be taken.

We have nothing to claim as coming from ourselves. The largest gift we were given was in the knowledge of our own insufficiency and the courage to admit it openly and authentically. We have a practiced and purposeful posture of listening for one thing only- His Next Step.

Life then becomes a voyage of a soul not for 100 years from now, but for a single observed step learned by active listening.

All the structures and planning that would be required we have thrown out the window and focus on the next step with every scrap of His Energy. We do not plan beyond the next step.

We never know when or what it will be. We adopt a posture of waiting for whatever and whenever. A servant is one who does not consider even their time a thing that they control. A servant then becomes the messenger embodied and sent.

We have seen things that beggar belief and after all that we have seen. The dark- The deep evils- The Light- The purity of Love perfected- we have learned that the one Truth that supersedes all others is Love.

God is Love.

This is my offering of my carpal tunnel to share a smidge of how to walk when purpose and reality collide and faith trembles in the forming of flexibility.

As always- Take what feels true to you.